When You Wake Up Every Morning To Forget Where You've Been

Just when you pull other things together in life
it seems like other parts fall apart

just when you thought you made the right turn
it turns out to be not what you thought

just when you thought you were ready to go
you find you weren't ready for anything
just when you felt you had one chapter closed
you find out you're still close to a beginning.

When you wake up every morning to a reminder of the past
and try your hardest to propel you for the future

when you have to sit and wonder why
you couldn't hold on just a little bit longer

when you're surrounded by everything you want
but still find yourself wanting what you had

when you wake up every morning to fight your mind
you feel you want to sleep forever.

You continue telling yourself what you know are lies
to get you through the day
you force yourself to be a different person
because it helps you numb the pain
you hide from the world so that no one sees
the messed thoughts drummed by misery
that fuel the depressesion inside your head
you wake up everymorning asking why move from bed

but you have to go on
no matter what's going on
and the sooner you fight it
the better you'll become
it's a setback in your thoughts
but you're stronger than this

and one day you'll look back
on the thing you missed
and instead of being cold and scared to move on
you'll be happy and joyous that that thing was gone
you'll realize it was the best thing to be

I'll realize it just wasn't right for me
as soon as I can figure my own self worth
I'll be ready to take over the world
just a bump in the road
just a hurdle to jump
I was stronger than this, now I can't take so much

rebirth from the ashes I set ablaze myself
I'll pull through this stage
like everyone else
I'm was stronger than this, I can be again
just give myself the permission to let all this end
remind myself that I'm worth something too
that I am good enough to do what I do

when I wake up everymorning to the thoughts of you
I beat myself up for a moment or two
then try to remember that more lies ahead
if I can just muster the strength to get out of bed....